Two and a half years ago, while in China, I was evacuated for five days through a blizzard. It's an experience that will stay with me for the rest of my days. It was last week in China, and I was so upset to not be spending it teaching.
Possibly the most vivid memory of the entire ordeal was the day we were able to go back to the flat. A woman who I'd met just days before but had become close to through the storm turned to me as we were driving down the drive way and said:
Do you feel as though you're coming home?
Very much so. I'll never forget that, that in the midst of coming home to NZ, I felt like Bethel was 100% my home, and I was returning home after this massive storm.
Now, five days before heading back to China for the first time since then, I'm having those same thoughts. Do I feel as though I'm heading home? Very much so.
Monday, July 23, 2012
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Dear past me, Sincerely current me.
Beckie,
Your heart is about to be broken like you never thought possible. Let's not sugar coat this, it will be the worst pain you've ever experienced. And it's going to take you a long time to heal. But, you WILL heal, I promise you. Take the lessons from it and move forward. Better things are coming. You're going to be a nurse. And you'll start to see your friends like the friends they are. You'll even discover friends you didn't know about before. And boy, are you going to LAUGH!
Don't take this letter with fear. Keep living. Don't be afraid to keep loving even though you know you'll be devastated soon. Because in a years time, you won't regret anything. This'll make you who you are in a year. The rebuild is slow, and at times painful, but flip, look at me. I'm YOU in a year's time. And I'm having the time of my LIFE.
Beckie.
Your heart is about to be broken like you never thought possible. Let's not sugar coat this, it will be the worst pain you've ever experienced. And it's going to take you a long time to heal. But, you WILL heal, I promise you. Take the lessons from it and move forward. Better things are coming. You're going to be a nurse. And you'll start to see your friends like the friends they are. You'll even discover friends you didn't know about before. And boy, are you going to LAUGH!
Don't take this letter with fear. Keep living. Don't be afraid to keep loving even though you know you'll be devastated soon. Because in a years time, you won't regret anything. This'll make you who you are in a year. The rebuild is slow, and at times painful, but flip, look at me. I'm YOU in a year's time. And I'm having the time of my LIFE.
Beckie.
Monday, July 16, 2012
So I came to this bizarre realization a few days ago. A little bit scary, but a lot exciting.
I'm both unemployed and single. Most people would find this depressing. Yeah, I did too. Still do at times, in fact. But, it also kind of leaves me totally free and unbound. I head off to China (YAY!!) in 12 days, and although I DO have a return flight, it's sort of exciting to know that I am totally free and available for anything that happens. Whether an adventure awaits in Auckland, China, Nepal or anywhere else, I know that I am not bound to anything, anywhere.
It's kind of freeing, really.
I'm both unemployed and single. Most people would find this depressing. Yeah, I did too. Still do at times, in fact. But, it also kind of leaves me totally free and unbound. I head off to China (YAY!!) in 12 days, and although I DO have a return flight, it's sort of exciting to know that I am totally free and available for anything that happens. Whether an adventure awaits in Auckland, China, Nepal or anywhere else, I know that I am not bound to anything, anywhere.
It's kind of freeing, really.
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