"Tomorrow is not a promise - its a chance"

Learning to love Jesus with everything I have is definitely not an overnight job, it really is a learning curve, just like any other relationship. What's different about a relationship with Jesus though, is that we can trust him, and he will never ever let us down. It's really hard to do though, don't get me wrong, sometimes I think it's freaken near impossible to trust him wholeheartedly with EVERYTHING, ALL the time. But then I'm humbled knowing there is not one person in the entire world who hasn't struggled with this. I'm learning who I am in Jesus, and who Jesus is in me. Something Ive been struggling with lately is kinda similar - where my heart lies. I always thought Roskill was my home, but lately, probably since I came home from China, I havent felt quite as at home here. But that doesnt mean God cant use me here while I am still here. I might feel a bit fake sometimes, but that doesnt mean God cant use me through it, or grow me through this, or touch someone else through me. Nothing is above him. Surrender is not a once off, its a constant decision. Sometimes I go through times where I have to wake up every morning and say to myself "Today I choose to follow Jesus, no matter how hard that is", and sometimes it all just comes naturally.

Take it day by day, and it will come.