Monday, October 11, 2010

prayers

I love reading back previous prayers I've written, like letters to God. I stumbled across this one, dated September 8th of this year.

"I don't want to be disappointed ever. But life is so full of disappointment...
Protect my heart.
I know deep deep down that you are sovereign, I have experienced that, but I really just want to FEEL again.
Really FEEL.
Feel You.
I know you love me, more than I could ever know, and you must break when you see me like this, but I don't know what to do. I feel like ripping this page out, screwing it up and throwing it in the air for you to catch and deal with.
Come and hold my hand again.

Melt my heart again."

It sucks that sometimes we must feel like this. Totally helpless and without any hope. But it's also awesome that we have a God who created the entire universe and everything in it, and yet who loves us each so deeply, whos heart breaks with ours, and whos arms are always wide open.

1 comment:

  1. As well as the book you are writing, I think you should be a song writer. Because you have an amazing way with words, and you are a fabulous singer, so maybe there should be some room in your life for song writing?

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