Friday, September 25, 2009

Sometimes life just sucks...

Pretty much,
China has fallen apart this week.
But
as much as it sucks for me,
as upset as I am,
as much as I just want to give up,
It's just impossible
for me
to imagine
what it must be like
for all the little kiddies in China
who have been
abandoned.
Sorry I have to be vague...ask me what the story is offline.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Beckie is going to China!

An update on the last post ("An Elephant-sized hiccup")....

I've just got home from the Chinese Embassy again, and my visa has been approved. oh yeah. I had an enormous amount of txt messages this morning (and a lovely anonymous comment on my last post...thanks...) wishing me luck and sending prayers and love, and it's so been felt today. The relief is HUGE...like actually. There's only the little twiddly bits left to sort, and then just turning up at the airport. The waiting is killing me.

I know that the chances of nothing else going wrong in the next 64 days are slim, but I have no doubt in my mind that everything will be ready to go in time. That's an encouraging thought.

Love,
Becks

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

An elephant-sized hiccup...

I have to be careful about what I say so bear with me...

I leave for China in 10 weeks (71 days actually...but who's counting..), and everything seemed to be going really smoothly. There's only really been a few little bumps along the way, but nothing too stressful..
Now I only have two things left to sort, the two things that I thought would be the easiest. 1. Insurance. And 2. my visa. I havent even really thought about insurance but got onto applying for my visa as soon as I could really.
BUT Im having mega ultra huge issues with getting my visa approved, which is actually about the worst thing that could happen. No visa, no entering China.

I can't be too specific here, but you can ask me (not on the internet) later if you wish and I'll fill you in.

You're support so far has been flippin' amazing. Actually. I have no doubt that this is what Im meant to be doing, and definately where Im meant to be right now, so theres no doubt in my mind that I'll get past this in time.

Love you all this much *stretches arms out as far as they will go*,
becks xx

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Thoughts of the week..

This week, I got to talking with a friend about attraction and such. It was an interesting discussion, one that led in the usual manner, but went a bit deeper (which is always a bonus!). We talked about "specifics", you know, like what people generally look for...the talk, dark handsom type. But then this got me thinking more. When we look for specifics, everyone will come off not good enough. Seriously, how would you feel if someone turned their direction because one or two specifics didnt quite fit? Worthless comes to mind.. How much better would life be if we weren't searching for perfection? How much better would life be if we embraced brokenness and faults?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Today at uni, I got to listen to a man in his mid 70's talk with the most amazing joy about his adorable wife of 50 years. It was actually the highlight of my week. Words like 'beautiful', 'loving', and 'matchless' rolled off his tongue with sincerity.
Of course, their lives wouldn't have been perfect, but their limitless love for each other was unmistakable.

It was beautiful.

How much are we missing out on by putting up specifics, or limits? This can be applied to anything, this was purely an example from my week.

Im slowly trying to remove the limits I put up in my life, the specifics Im looking at so life might turn out perfect. Because if we expect perfection, we're only setting ourselves up for disappointment.